It’s freaky, you know? Those moments that literally make your hair stand on end and sit up and notice? I had one of those epiphany or ‘a-ha’ moments but what I usually call a God moment. Imagine it – my adorable hubby and I are watching Last Comic Standing and come on, it’s just mindless t.v. Not too much stimulating stuff there, folks. People are funny, hahaha, and it’s over. It’s an easy time for me to read and write and do a billion other things while the t.v. is on in the background and yet I can still enjoy what is going on in front of me. Well, LITTLE DID I KNOW that my world was about to be rocked! Let me set the scene for you: It’s comic death-match time and both comics have given their performance. The judges at this time give both of the comics a last piece of advice before they destroy someone’s dreams. Can you feel it? I can add some smoke in the background if you want (it wasn’t there but that’s what we do as writers, right?!). Judge #1 – Russell Peters said something that I am sure was heart-warming because that’s just the kind of guy he is. Judge #2 – Roseanne also quips that something sweet and uplifting – she is such a HUGE voice for the next comic generation – who knew? And then – here we go people – Judge #3 – Keenan Ivory Wayans speaks and it is like angels literally hearken the words to my ears. He tells the comics “In show business, many are called, few are chosen and even less go on.” I think I scared my husband at how quickly I jumped over hit the pause button and started writing. As Keenan was speaking I could hear God telling me that it’s the exact same way in writing. I needed to hear Keenan Ivory Wayans say something amazing to two hilarious performers for me to realize that: In writing, many are called, few are chosen and even less go on. So, here’s the question of the hour. Where do I fit in this brilliant piece of advice?? I know I feel called. I’ve felt that as long as I can remember. I’ve written as long as I can remember. I used to write full sermons for my stuffed animals to mull over for a week. And they were hardcore! So yes, I have the calling. OK, next thing; few are chosen. I believe that I am chosen to write, even though it’s hard. When I decided to become a full-time writer, I had ABSOLUTELY no idea how many hats I would actually be wearing. I thought I would just write and the rest would simply happen – you know, the rest being the part where the book is published, I make tons of money and become my hubby’s sugar-momma! OK, actually, I’d be happy just being published. But, I had no idea how much work that would entail. Now the last part – the part that is unknown – the ‘even less go on’ part. Oh, I’m definitely going to go on writing. I have to write. I don’t have a choice. Seriously, I have to write something every day or I feel as if my day is incomplete. But I don’t think he simply meant go on telling jokes or writing. I think he meant go on to greatness; as he and the other judges have. And that is what I lay awake at night and wonder. In 10, 20, 30 years, am I going to still be fighting to be published (or have published a ton of books and anthologies on my own) or am I going to be a part of those that are considered ‘great’. And yes, who I consider great may be completely different from who YOU consider great, but the one thing these authors have in common is that we both consider them great for one reason or another. Trust me, I don’t want to be worshipped, but like in any profession, I want my growth potential to be exponential. I want ‘to go on’. What about you? Where do want to see yourself in 10 years or more? Still blogging to the same few people or do you want to walk into any bookstore and see your name on a book in whatever respective section you love? What is it going to take for you to have your epiphany? Hopefully, this post was someone’s epiphany. If so, when you dedicate your first published book to me, PLEASE make sure and spell my name right. The first name is K-E-L-L-I! 🙂
Find your passion, figure out where you want to be, not today but eventually, and then get after it. Now that I’ve had my epiphany, my vocational growth potential is limitless. And that’s exactly where it needs to be.
^^^^^March 25, 2015: It’s ironic how I wrote this and then fell off the map. Well, to make an annoyingly long story short, I’ve been dealing with severe depression and some major back problems (still). It’s truly odd that I haven’t been writing because I usually can’t stop writing when I am in one of my depressive states, yet this time, I haven’t written anything. I haven’t even had the desire to write. I couldn’t figure out why until I started reviewing my blog and saw this post where I metaphorically stood up and said I know I’m supposed to write and I will. As you can imagine, I was discouraged and disappointed with myself since I wasn’t writing. And then I started thinking about everything that I had promised and all that I was neglecting to do (such as picking up a pen or typing on a computer or working on any story lines) and came to the conclusion that sometimes when one stands up and says this is what I am going to do – a test is placed before that person to make sure they really mean it. Well, I really meant it, but let life get in the way and shut my creative spirit off, failing the test before me. What this means is that I haven’t done what I promised to do for y’all but more importantly, I didn’t keep my promise to myself. Well, that changes today. I am taking unlocking my creative vault and allowing whatever is in there to simply pour out. I know it will take time to get back to where I was. Honestly, I may not post everyday in the beginning, but you can be assured that I WILL be writing each day. That I promise you and more importantly, I make that promise to myself.