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Christmas Wish

This is my favorite time of year. The intoxicating smells, smiling children, shimmering lights glowing on every street. Yes, it truly is magical. However, the older I get, the less the magic entices me. To be honest, I haven’t even decorated my house this year. I am not anti-Christmas, but there is no greater time in which my heart aches for a child. My wonderful hubby and I have been married for eleven years, and have not been able to conceive. It is our hearts desire to have a baby, or twelve, and it just isn’t happening. It’s tough. I find myself trying to just let Christmas slink by, hoping that it will be over soon.
I wonder though, am I doing myself and my husband a disservice? Have I given the child that may never be too much control over my feelings and actions? And if this is the case, how do I go about correcting this? The desire is soooo strong. I can’t imagine blocking it out.
Tomorrow, I think I will try and at least pull our stockings out and hang them. See how it feels, and then maybe hang some lights. You know, maybe Christmas ‘light’. See how that feels…
And maybe one day I will get my Christmas wish.

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